Sunday, September 03, 2006 @ 11:25 PM
God.
Are You sure?
Are You sure You're making the right choice by placing such a difficult course before me? The mountain seem so high- I can't even see the peak. The slopes are so smooth and slippery, I'll slip and fall. The rest of the journey seemed so long, so unreachable, so impossible.
I'm losing hope, God.
I wish I was simpler, but I know I'm not. I'm losing it. I'm left behind.
I'm so scared. I'm really scared. I very afraid I might just leave You.
I don't want to. I really don't want.
How I wish it's just me being emotional for the moment. But I know it's not. It's happened so many times, and know I know it's not a rush of emotion, it's the emotion that had been piling up within me.
I'm so tired. I just want to sleep and dream of You. I just want to be where You are, in Your arms. I don't want anything else. Everything else seem so unwanted to me. All I want is You. You Lord, just You, God.
But why can't I seem to find You? Where's the comfort I've been yearning for?
Where are You?
Somehow, I know You're near somewhere. So God, please, meet me. Please. That's all I'm askin for. Just a word, a whisper, anything. Just anything Lord. I just want to be with You.
Let everything else fade away.